I was kind of absent from my Blog, and especially YouTube for quite a while over the Christmas break. I'm only human and when I get run down and time gets scarce even things like this, like sharing my thoughts and what God is doing, which is usually uplifting and encouraging for me, get left by the wayside.
But isn't it great that God is nothing like that. No matter what is going on, no matter how chaotic the world is - he's never absent. And so God has still been working in my life, and always will be not matter how long between blog posts, between videos, or even between my meaningful prayers and time with him. God is there waiting for me to come back, even more faithful than the most avid blog follower :)
And when you look back, it's amazing to see the ways God has been working in your life, sometimes without you even realising at the time, and sometimes for years before you even saw the fruits of what he was doing in you.
Just looking back over my blogs, which I've only been doing for about 6 months, I can already see a chain of things changing to lead me to where I am now. And that's just what is visible through my blog posts. Really, he started this work in me a long time ago.
Those blog posts just hint at the ups and downs I've gone through, and are all part of the lesson that God is continually teaching me - to be patient and to trust in his perfect plans. What is 6 months to a God who is eternal. It's just like the blink of an eye.
I've been reminded continually to keep my eyes on Him - on eternity and my spiritual life - rather than being burdened with this physical life. We're just passing through. If we get blinded by the physical life we start to worry about things again, we feel old and tired, hampered by our physical bodies, everything feels heavy.
But when our trust is completely in him we remember that everything is under control and even death has been conquered!
I pray every day for God to remind me of this, so that I can be an example of that to everyone around me who hasn't yet found that there is more to life than the physical. If it's hard enough for those of us who believe in God to remember and feel at peace, my heart breaks for those who don't know Him yet.
I am working as a Christian Pastoral Support Worker (formerly Chaplain) at the High School where I was previously a teacher, and am reminded of my own blog posts as I start this role - especially the one about letting go of things so we can receive what God is giving us.
Only since I've stopped teaching and started this new role have I realised how unhappy I was in teaching. I knew it to some extent, but now that I have this job that I already love I realise how much better I feel about everything in life.
I am grateful for my time as a teacher - I learnt a lot of valuable things. But I am also grateful for not letting fear hold me back from letting go of that job when the time was right.
My prayer for this point in my life is continued patience, open eyes and ears, and a stronger faith to completely trust in God. This new job demands it - a CHRISTIAN pastoral support worker - it's one role that has no meaning whatsoever without God leading.
I am excited, and scared, but mostly excited at what is in store!
Behold I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a roadway in the wilderness and rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43:19